LOVE...

It's beautiful...

It's fulfilling...

It's everything I thought it would be...

It's scary/exciting...

It's something new...

It's something for me and you...

Hello... I'm back and I'm so in love... Lets see where this will take me! ;)

The Killer

Female: Baby just talk to me. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!

He's packing, he's searching, he's lost.

Female: Just listen to me! I'm tired of all the arguing, the disagreements, we just don't
communicate anymore.

He's ignoring her.

Female: Honey... I'm scared.

Male: You're scared? Really? And why is that? Is it because you cheated on me?

Female: Yes. I'm afraid of losing you.

Male: Already lost. And I can't be found.

Female: You're not being fair!

Male: Fair? (giggles) Fair? I'm not being fair... Bitc. Oh. I'm sorry let me calm down.

Female: Were you about to call me a b!tch?

Male: Almost, but I caught myself, so calm ya a$$ down.

Female: Almost?

Male: Almost doesn't count.

Female: (Sighs with frustration) We should talk about this!

Male: Talk about what?

Female: The divorce.

Male: Nothing to talk about.

Famale: Excuse me?

Male: You can have it all, well... All the houses, the money in the safe, the truck, the Honda and the Jag.

Female: I don't want it I want YOU!

Male: I'm sorry, you can't have me.

Female: Why?

Male: Because I'm positive.

Female: Positive about what?

Male: Positive my life is cut short because my wife couldn't just love her husband. She couldn't just love me! WHY YOU COULDN'T JUST LOVE ME!?

Female: I do love you! Wait. Life cut short? I don't get it.

Male: You didn't know how to tell your partner to wrap it up?

Female: You got tested?

Male: No duh.

Female: HIV?

Male: Yes.

Female: Wow, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry!

Male: You should be.

Female: (Smirk)

Male: What you smilin' fo?

Female: You dawg!

Male: What? I'm not the cheater.

Female: Yes, you are. I've been checked 3x's since I did the whoop whoop w/ ol' boy and I'm HIV negative

He's silent

Female: I'm 100% healthy. Nothing is wrong with me, except my conscience... But I'll get through that. But you're burned. You're burned for your actions, your weakness, and your faults. And you were really about to call me a b!tch. Shame

He shed a tear

Female: I love you

He nods

Female: You should've wrapped it up

She exits

Selfish

Why'd you leave me in this big world?
Leave me with temptations I can't handle
Why'd you leave me to be with someone else?
Wasn't I good enough for you?
Was I too much to handle?
Why'd you leave me without saying goodbye?
You could've waited another HOUR!
Why you leave me?
You didn't get to see me cry
But you did hear me holler
Why'd you leave me before I could start life?
Ever since you've been gone...
EVERYTHING GON' WRONG!
Why'd you leave me to grow up so quick?
It's difficult, can't everyone handle it
Why'd you leave me friend
You're suppose to watch me grow up
And tell me who to hang with
Why'd you leave me
We're suppose to stay tight
You said I'm the one who light up your eyes
Why'd you leave me alone
Quiet
Scared
Curious and to love knowledge
Why'd you leave me?
In this big world
It's a tsunami
You didn't get to see me graduate
Now I'm in college
Why'd you leave me?
I don't care if I'm being selfish
Just answer the question
Was I bad?
I could've change...
Just...
Why'd you leave me?
I can't handle it
Just answer the question
...
Mommy?

I'm over YOU!

I've finally taken a stand for myself to say
"I'm over YOU!"
Thank God Almighty
"I'm over YOU!"
I irritated myself when I thought I was in love with you,
but on the bright side
"I'm over YOU!"
Lying awake at night thinking about you
Gave grumpy morning
Less sleep do to you
But now my morning are great
"I'm over YOU!"
Hopefully we could still be friendz without privilege because,
You're not the one
Remember...
"I'm over YOU!"
The gaze in your eyes no longer have control O-VER me
I'm happy being a SING-LE QUEEN
My future and happYness
Doesn't involve you
So baby please get a clue
"I'm over YOU!"
What I'm putting here is the truth
If you can't handle it
Nor believe it's true
Ruin a friendship
I'm sorry boo
But yet again
I shall say
This is soooooooooooooooo TRUE!
Babe

"I'M OVER YOU!"

My Mind

Not following your heart lead you to nothing but terrible heartbreak

And unforgettable mistakes

The thought of listening to your gut only makes the fear stronger
and the not-action satisfaction last longer

Ever wanted someone so bad you drift from reality believing you have them and life seems better?

Then snap back to reality and the frustration of not having this person returned... Once Again.

And since your action is your secret, you're your only friend.

Truth be told

You want to shout the one's name until it offends you

Unfortunately you cover it under dirt with the rest of your fantasies

Not allowing yourself to grow, know or accept.

Better yet you lost yourself in this fiasco, you forgot your own worth

You try to forget about the one

Move on with your life and have fun (hahaha)

But not by choice...

Your heart isn't done.

LETS GO WHITNEY HOUSTON!

WHITNEY HOUSTON LYRICS

I love the the Lord, he heard my cry
And pitied every groan, long as I,
I live And troubles rise, I hasten to his throne

[Chorus:]
Oh, I love the Lord
I sure do, surely do love the Lord
He heard, he heard my cry
And pitied every groan, yes he did
Every groan Long as I live, long as I,
I live And troubles rise, troubles rise
I hasten to to to to to I'll hasten,
I'll hasten to his throne
I'll hasten to his throne hold on hold on
Tears are streaming down my eyes
I'll hasten, I'll hasten to his throne

Yes I will, I'll run I know
I can go to his throne I know I can go,
I know I can go I'll hasten, I'm gonna run
I know I can go, I know I can go
I'll hasten, I'll hasten to his throne

See I can run, Lord you know I will
When there is nowhere to go I know I can go to you
I know I can run to you oh
I'll hasten, I'll hasten to his, his throne
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I'll hasten, hasten to his throne
Surely gonna be here

She'll be alright. As long as she keep Christ 1st and Bobby Last.

Life to too short, and too precious to waste.

What would you do if I tell you "I like you?"
Would you laugh? Cry? Smile? Frown? Admit you feel the same? Or just walk away?

What would you do if I tell you "I need you?"
Would you laugh? Cry? Smile? Frown? Admit you feel the same? Or just walk away?

What would you do if I tell you "I love you?"
Would you laugh? Cry? Smile? Frown? Admit you feel the same? Or just walk away?

What would you do if I tell you, "I'll never admit my feelings until it's too late?"
Would you laugh? Cry? Smile? Frown? Admit you feel the same? Or just walk away?

What would you do if I tell you "I'm blockin' my true feelings for you because I DON'T WANT TO LOVE YOU!?"
Would you laugh? Cry? Smile? Frown? Admit you feel the same? Or just walk away?

What would you do if I tell you, "I'm afraid of love."
Would you laugh? Cry? Smile? Frown? Admit you feel the same? Or just walk away?

What would you do if I tell you, "I hate you."
Would you laugh? Cry? Smile? Frown? Admit you feel the same? Or just walk away?

What would you do if I tell you, "About a month ago I had a doctor's appointment, since I haven't been for a while I didn't know what to expect. I sat down trembling because the aroma of the room made me nervous and I'm sure my blood pressure was through-the-roof, the doctor took blood, X-Ray, I had my first pap, and he made sure I released myself in a cup. I sat in the room for about 20 minutes alone thinking 'WHY I CAME ALONE! I CAN'T DO THIS!'... Finally the doctor walked through the door with a terrible look on his face - or maybe it was just me. He smiled to ease the tension; and it didn't work. He sat down and massaged his knees before he looked at me again. He winked and said 'You're a beautiful young lady with so much potential, you seem to love everybody and everybody seems to love you, however, I don't have good news.' F*CKIN' GREAT! Right? 'What do you mean?' I asked 'What's wrong?'... 'You have an enlarged heart, which means, sign of serious disease of the muscle of the heart. When disease attacks the muscles of the heart, the ability of the heart to function properly as a pump is reduced. This causes the blood flow to slow and the heart to enlarge.' (I remembered what he said word for word) Before he could say anything else to ruin my life... I ran out the room with tears streaming down my face, trying not to pass out before I make it to my car, trying not to think about you, and trying to think straight. WHY DO I WORRY ABOUT YOU SO MUCH AND I'M DYING AT SUCH A YOUNG AGE! WHY DO I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME AND YOU DON'T THINK ABOUT ME *atlease to my knowledge*? WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS ON MY MIND?
-- ExhalE -- Since my doctor was built like a goddess he caught me before I was completely gone and let me know if I didn't do anything about it... I would die very young. Probably won't make it to the age of 23. He said it's servere... but we can make it. I just have to do my part. I smiled, rolled my eyes, thanked the doctor, got myself together, and walked to my car. The first thing I did way pray... Prayed for forgiveness, prayed for my family and friends, prayed for Jesus, talked to Jesus, laughed with Jesus, thanked Jesus, I let Jesus know I love him... and then... I prayed for you, prayed that someone would love you like I can, someone would take care of your kids, someone would make sure you're happy, someone would make sure you're not stressed out, someone will show you how to love, someone would keep you focus with God... Because NO ONE can love you like I do. I believe it's a curse...
--BUT. I'm moving on now... God is letting me know it's going to be alright. Blessings come with patients and I just have to take the time to see...

Would you laugh? Cry? Smile? Frown? Ask to pray with me? Or just walk away?

-It just sucks my family doesn't know.


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